My Greatest Fear

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Spiders. What awful little creatures. I mean, I know they serve the planet well and all but wow are those things terrifying. If you put one even ten feet away from me, I will run for dear life. And I’m not talking a giant tarantula type thing, like you see in the movies. I mean if there’s a teensy, tiny little guy crawling on my bedroom wall, I’m going to scream and run for the hills.

However, lucky for you, (and for me) this isn’t about spiders. Not at all. In fact as scary as those nasty eight-legged creatures may be, spiders are nothing compared to what I’m about to share with you.

The most paralyzing thought I have is a recurring one. It’s one that shakes me to my core. One that keeps me up late at night but also one that sends chills down my spine bright and early in the morning. My greatest fear is that one day, I’ll wake up one of the robots. One of the machines. One of the computers programmed to follow every order on a never-ending list. Day after day after day. And that will be my “life.”

You see I believe that everyone has something to offer this world. Something uniquely theirs. And my greatest fear is falling into the trap of silencing that. As children, we’re taught “Chase your dreams, no matter what. ” And then at some point, years later, an adult comes along and smacks us with the “You have to be realistic” talk. And all that passion, those beautiful, beautiful dreams sink away. Because dreams are “just dreams.” They’re not real.

Well I guess that’s why I’m writing this. To say I think that’s a load of sh*t. That you can choose to chase the dream and make it work. You can fight for your passion and make it your career.

Will it be easy? Of course not. The system is set so that you will fail. So that you will fall in line. But that’s just it. The world doesn’t need any more robots. The world needs thinkers, doers, creators; not repeaters.

We need NEW ideas. We need innovators. And maybe a new word for innovators. We need all that stuff the world has never seen before…because you, yes you reading this, haven’t created it yet.

Consider this a call to arms. The world is waiting.

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The Wealth of a Natural Gift

 

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The funny thing about people who change your life is that you never see them coming.

This was true of the man I met three nights ago. Let’s call him Charles.

When we began conversation on Thursday night, he seemed nice enough. He had no problem spending money, I’ll tell you that. (Which was convenient because I was working)

As the night progressed, Charles began to confide in me. It turned out he was a manager on Wall Street.

Yet here he was on a Thursday night at the bar, drinking shot after shot of Jameson, alone.

It didn’t take long for Charles to tell me that even with all the big money he’s making, he’s just not happy with his life. He spent years and years chasing money and for what? To not have the time to spend it?

Charles then began to ask about me. He wanted to know what I do.

Before I told him, I braced myself for a reaction. The typical reaction is along the lines of “Oh, she’s one of those” or “Oh, that’s a nice little dream.”

Instead, when I told Charles that I’m a writer, he smiled. Not a condescending smile or a teasing one. Just a genuine grin.

“So is that your passion? Have you written since you were young?”

And so I told him. I told him how writing has been my passion since I was in the fourth grade. I told him how my grammar school teacher signed my yearbook “I hope to get a signed book from you one day.” I told him how I know writing offers no promises but it’s what I love to do- it’s what I’ve always loved to do.

You could tell Charles had nothing but respect for what I said. However, what came next in the conversation hit me like a ton of bricks.

Charles looked me dead in the eye. “Our society is not made for those with natural gifts to succeed.”

He took a deep breath and continued: “But it’s not impossible…you just need to work a lot harder.”

I smiled then too.

I never believed fighting for my passion would be easy. I never thought anything would be handed to me. But I will say that everything I’ve worked for thus far has been infinitely rewarding.

I’ve always been a person of passion. So sure, I struggle. I struggle constantly to make what I dream of become a reality. But I believe that if our society is not made for those with natural gifts to succeed, WE have to be the ones to change it.

I always say that people are only as great as their impact.

By that token, Charles is greater than he ever imagined.

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Guest Post: Life’s An Adventure – The Diabetic Journey

Check out my guest post on The Diabetic Journey! (link below)

Thank you again to Brittany, the beautiful soul (and fellow type 1 diabetic) behind the page. I encourage all of you to follow her blog and her writing. You can find her latest piece on the Huffington Post: The Harsh Reality of Diabetes

Enjoy everyone 🙂

Source: Guest Post: Life’s An Adventure – The Diabetic Journey

What I Found in Camden Town

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This is a piece I wrote two summers ago in London. It was my first time there but also my first time going away without anyone I really knew.

As a child, I loved to write. When I graduated high school, I left with the intention of pursuing writing. Then college happened. Writing started to fade out of my life. I didn’t enjoy any of my English classes. (Too many rules, too little passion) I barely had time for myself. Everything was schoolwork.

It wasn’t until I went to London that I found love for the craft again. I may have also found myself:

The moonlight glistens high above the canal. London’s youngest adults gather across. Summer freedom. Laughing. Kissing. Smiling. Stress is unwelcome here. The surrounding lights illuminate the bridge. I snap a picture. I’ve never been anywhere like this before. But deep down, there is a sense of familiarity. It’s almost dreamlike.

It is completely dark and people I have never met before surround me. Yet I feel safe. Camden is reminiscent of home. Lights flash and vibrations carry from the club across the water. The locals are undistracted. Their peace can’t be broken. This is the peace I struggle to find in New York City.

New York is always on to the next thing. You’re in today but you’re planning for tomorrow, and the next day, and the next year. Your phone has to let you know every last detail of the world around you. Why would you figure that out yourself? Nonsense. You can just press a button. The streets are littered with people, but most don’t see half of what’s happening around them. There’s a bearded man shivering in a black, tattered blanket, his German Shepherd sprawled out next to him. No one so much as hesitates at the sight. It’s just another day. People have things to do and places to be.

But there’s a reason New York is loved so distinctly. The city that never sleeps is a judgment-free zone, a social experiment. We try, we explore, and we discover. We are open to all that we don’t know. What could be rarer?

London is an entirely different world from New York. Yet, people often compare the two cities. I could find a million ways in which they’re different. However, I can also pick out the similarities. Individuals are individuals. In Camden Town especially, people are open-minded. It reminds me of St. Mark’s Place. In a city of progression, it’s a place of even more openness and acceptance. It’s one of the few places I’ve been that I can truly see people for who they are. Ultimately, this is why I came to London.

I didn’t know it when I left. However, I came to find out.  I’m a writer that was barely writing. 

I look back at this now and realize how true it is that going to a foreign place tells you more about yourself than the place. I stand by the things that I said. However, I can see now how stressed I was back then from school. My reflections on New York were more about my need to get away and to get in touch with myself than they were about the city.

I love New York. I always have. There’s so much beauty here and although hectic at times, there’s a level of peace that can be found in the right places.

It’s been several years now but I continue to write. I continue to travel. After I graduated college, I decided I was going to take some time to find what I truly want to do. The funny thing? It was right in front of me all along.

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Defying Mediocrity

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So, what’s stopping you?

Fear of the unknown? Of failure? Judgment?

There is a very standard reaction to dreamers in today’s society.

There’s the eye roll, the sarcasm, the twisted look of disapproval. Sometimes, you’re just met with silence.

Imagine that. Chasing your dreams is so “novel” that people don’t even know how to respond to it.

Well, whether you’re reading this as a dreamer or a doubter, I would like to introduce you to someone that has changed my life- someone who I hope will also change yours. (If he hasn’t already)

Ladies and gentlemen, I introduce to you, Paulo Coelho.

You may recognize his name even if you haven’t read his work. His quotes have circulated the internet for many years, and for good reason.

He is the author of the best-selling novel, The Alchemist, which is likely to be the first of many books you read by him. It is definitely his most famous piece. (Although, surprisingly not my favorite of his)

More than his books though, I want you to know about him.

Paulo Coelho is by far one of the most interesting people I’ve come across, and one of my biggest sources of inspiration.

Coelho knew from a very young age that he wanted to write. His family, a well-respected family from Rio de Janeiro, had very different plans for him. They wanted him to follow in his father’s footsteps of engineering or perhaps consider a career in law.

They grew so concerned about his ambitions and his disdain for a traditional path that they had him committed to a mental institution. They did this to him not once, but three times in total. (Many years later, they said how much they regretted it)

To them, and to much of society then, Coelho’s dreams weren’t ambitious or respectable enough. Yet, look where he is now. 

It took Coelho many years and many diversions to find success, but he did. No matter how many obstacles he met, (and I assure you there were a lot more I’m not sharing here) he pursued his passion. He chased after his dream.

Originally, his most famous book only sold nine hundred copies in Brazil. Today, it is one of the world’s most popular novels and Coelho is one of the most wildly successful authors of all-time.

He continues to inspire more every day.

So now, remind me again, what’s stopping you?

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Dive into Life

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Mind-blowing, isn’t it? How in this day and age, it seems more common for people to be indifferent than to show they care.

I mean, how in the world has it become “cool” to not try?

Call me insane, but I don’t see even the slightest allure in apathy…or pretending to be apathetic.

In one of my favorite quotes, Roald Dahl addressed this:

“I began to realize how important it was to be an enthusiast in life. If you are interested in something, no matter what it is, go at it at full speed ahead. Embrace it with both arms, hug it, love it and above all become passionate about it. Lukewarm is no good.”

Please, I beg of you, chase the things that spark your curiosity. Dive in. Headfirst.

The scarier they seem, the better the experience they will bring.

They say the wealthiest place is the graveyard.

Stop waiting.

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How to Save a Life

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When was the last time a person completely changed your day around with just their presence?

Think about it. When was the last time someone exuded such a positive spirit that you couldn’t help but smile along with them…even when you were having a bad day yourself?

It’s often said that energy is contagious.

After the experiences I’ve had in my life, I have no choice but to believe this is true.

Believe it or not, there are people out there who will make you want to do better in their company. They will inspire you and motivate you and remind you to never give up on what you dream of.

These are the ones who don’t just recognize you for who you are, but what you can be.

My goal in life is to be one of them.

For those that don’t know me, I’m the girl who looks for potential where it’s otherwise hidden. I search for beauty in the ugly and light in the dark.

I do this because I believe there’s always more to a person than what they choose to show you.

I try to spread only the kindest of energy because I know even the brightest of smiles and the deepest of laughs come from people who have seen hard times.

It may sound crazy, but I believe it’s energy that can change the world.

After all, how many sparks does it take to start a fire?

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